To myself

i have no idea how you managed,but i am glad you could have sorted out shit.its been a long time coming,and im glad your picking up your rewards. Stop being so lonely,Stop trying to find answers,and stop making others laugh,i know you think thats the only good thing you own,but your sometimes a pain,and a well sort of idiot,i appreciate your wit,but please,the dramatics can take a back seat!And you have to gain selfworth,trust,love,respect and happiness again.you are worthy of those things! dont ever doubt them.i knew you have always been hurt by so many,and with respect have dealt with most of them?But hurt can stay hurt or hurt can transcent? Deal with them as you always do ~with endurance. You suck in the love dept. no,you really do! be fair to the people that want to love and respect you. Not everyone will deal you a short hand,or love you less or at all. Be as kind as you are,as special as you are,Take care of your heart. And you smell nice. You genuis!